Things were way off.
I realize more than ever that I'm disposable in my workplace...
And I think I need to really kickstart things on my own if I ever want to become a tattoo artist.
I'm pretty sure I won't be going back into classes for... a long time.
Everyone is in a sour mood.
I feel like poop...
I cannot wait for the 30th. A day of relaxation and fun is much in need right now. I was so excited last night, planning everything and pulling it all together in my mind. I pray that things will wok out, I really do, because if they don't, I don't know what I'm going to do with myself at the end of this month.
Steven and I tried to think out a game plan earlier today when things started to pitch south. It pretty much came down to the fact that we both need to find a good, stable source of revenue. We want to be happy with what we're doing -- but, you know, we wan to do more than just get by, too. Achieving both seems. really hard right now. I know we'll figure it out. We always have.
The road is just so damn bumpy.
Despite the fact that we've only been together -- romantically -- for 7 months, we've been through so much. We've been tested by circumstance and by the people around us. We're so freaking close, as friends, as partners, as lovers. The fact that we were close for so many years before this point really helped it along. We learned who each other were, and in the time that we were apart, we figured ourselves out as well. We grew up. A lot. And goodness knows, so many people we knew back then just honestly haven't.
I'm positive that, to an outsider, it might seem like we're going a little fast, but I believe that we're going at the perfect pace for us. We don't have all of the answers -- we barely have half of the questions -- but we're good at working as a team, you know? We don't look at things as "you" or "I," it's all, "Okay, we need to do this," or "We should do this."
Sigh.
Time to blow off some steam and let dinner settle in my tummy! Have a good one, guys.
I hope you've enjoyed this excursion
just beyond the grey.
Blessed be!
Humbly,
Shannon Grey
P.S. Also! I'm excited for more than the 30th, actually. I might get to see a close, old friend of mine, Judy, soon! I really hope I can. I think she could really help me out with some of these uncertainties that I have. Here's to hoping!
